Welcome to Griefland

I recently found myself in Griefland. As with all inhabitants here, it was involuntary and unwelcome. My first child was born still, at term, after a healthy pregnancy. The devastation is unfathomable.

Since my begrudging arrival in Griefland, I’ve found writing helpful in coping with the hurricane of emotions swirling within me. My hope is that this blog will assist me in navigating the topography of Griefland. It is going to be a long, long road.

I have been comforted by reading other baby loss blogs. Perhaps some of my words will resonate with people, as so many other blogs have for me. If even one individual finds comfort here, that will be an extra gift. A nod to the fact that my son’s life was not in vain.

My reasoning to blog anonymously is twofold. First, if my name were attached to these posts, I would hesitate each time I sat down to write instead of allowing the words to flow. Even unconsciously, I would filter my thoughts.

Secondly, some of the emotions I’m feeling in Griefland are quite, well…ugly. I don’t want to offend any of my family or friends nor do I want them to worry unnecessarily about me. These are some of the most private and deep emotions.

For the benefit of my own healing and to be as honest as possible with those who read this blog, I am withholding my identity. I am happy to share personal details in private correspondence. Please feel free to email me.

Thank you for visiting.